Lilly’s birth story

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Monday morning was just like any other work day. I was a few days overdue, uncomfortable, and feeling very pregnant. At one point I had thought about stopping work on my due date, but when I thought more about it I knew I would just go nuts sitting around at home. Besides that, almost EVERY pregnant person I knew or had been following ended up being induced, so I had convinced myself that that would most likely be my fate as well.

IT had my work computer tied up for the day, so I actually spend the morning working from home and the main office. I went into school from 1-6 and had a normal day walking around, hanging out with the kids, and training my maternity leave replacement. I actually snapped this pic at work that day. Lone be hold I wouldn’t be pregnant for much longer!


In my head I KNEW I would have some sort of signs before going into labor… I read it online… braxton hicks, mucus plugs, excessive pooping…. I was on the look out but my body wasn’t telling my anything. It was ok though because I had this really annoying cough and I figured my body was just giving me time to get rid of that before meeting my baby girl. When I got home from work I still felt the same. I was super uncomfortable, hungry, and ready to veg out on the couch. We had some leftover pizza and mashed potatoes for dinner, and sat in to netflix for the evening. Micah had told me he was planning on going to the garage for a while, but for some reason he wasn’t going. Personally, I was ready to monopolize the couch (which he was currently doing) so I turned on The Fosters hoping to encourage him out.  About half way though the show, (Micah was still there) I had a coughing spell and decided to get up and get something to drink. This is when my water broke. After a bunch of people telling me how it was nothing like the movies, for me it was totally like the movies! It was a huge gush! I was so glad I missed the couch! We called the hospital where they told me that I could take a shower before coming in, and that my midwife was still out of town and I would be having someone I never met attending my birth. Talk about anxiety! I showered up and we headed in.

When we pulled up to the hospital I was starting to get more uncomfortable but was mainly just anxious / excited. I remember thinking “are these contractions?” because I felt EVERYTHING in my back. We went up the the birth floor and got the room with the birthing tub, which was in my birth plan to want to try. The nurse confirmed that my water broke and I got to sit in the bed for my 20 minutes of monitoring before I could start moving around. This is when things really started to hurt, but they were all in my back! Sitting in the bed made them so much worse and at this point I didn’t doubt I was having contractions / back labor. Because I was group B strep positive I also had to get IV antibiotics. I warned them I was a “hard stick” many times, but it still probably took 5 or 6 pokes with the IV before they brought out the tiny IV that they use on babies and were finally able to get that in. They wanted me to wait for the first round of antibiotics to complete before getting in the tub, but at least that wasn’t that bad because I could get up out of bed with the IV. I was checked and at this point was at 4 cm and “paper thin”. I asked them to fill the tub because my back pain was getting to the point where I needed to try something new. Micah was great and would do anything that I asked him too. He pushed on my back which helped the most and I also leaned forward on him, the bed, and the nurse. At this point I saw it was past  midnight. Yay! A valentines baby she would be!

The next thing that I didn’t expect was the nausea and vomiting. It was so gross and completely took my ability to breathe / focus though the contractions away. I threw up a couple times, and dry heaved  quite a bit. I remember thinking that MAYBE I could go through with  a natural birth if it wasn’t for my stupid stomach! The nurse put some peppermint oil in the bottom of my puke cup and trust me I was married to that cup for the next 10 hours. Breathing the peppermint oil really seemed to be the only thing that helped. Thinking that taking the pain away would help my stomach, I was already thinking epidural, but was also determined to try the birthing tub first. They unhooked my IV, and I climbed in. Being in the water was definitely better than walking around the room because it was so much easier to move. Once I started floating I also became aware of how much tension my body was holding and how tired I had already become. My legs were shaking and the vomiting really had taken a lot out of me. While the tub was great, I decided to ask …

“So if I were to want an epidural, how long would it take to get one?” to which the nurse responded about 30 minutes. I then asked if I could stay in the tub until it was pretty much ready, and when she said yes I figured that sounded like a good plan to me. I could also see Micah was getting tired from my constant neediness of him, and I figured if I reached my breaking point I didn’t want to have to wait 30 minutes to get some relief. I asked if they could call the anesthesiologist, and get me an epidural. My “plans” for a natural birth weren’t really more than curiosity as to what labor actually felt like.  I had heard many women talk about how they wanted to truly “experience, feel, and control” their birth. Personally I didn’t feel empowered or like I was in control at all. At one point Micah told me I was doing the alligator death roll in the tub and I hadn’t even realized what my body was doing! (Looking back I think doing the rolls helped a ton because this is when my back labor starting feeling more like normal labor! I believe she moved into a better position)

The anesthesiologist arrived and I was told it was time to get out of the tub. When I got out I was freezing but couldn’t think straight enough to change out of my wet sports bra. Eventually I was out of it but I don’t remember how that happened. The doc begin explaining the epidural, risks, what I would feel, etc. and I felt like he was talking so slow! 30 minuties ago I had been getting though my contractions by telling myself that relief was ON THE WAY, and NOT MUCH LONGER. Then the doc asked about my IV and if that was “all the fluids I had?” Well since they had it unhooked in the tub and since the infant size IV was a much slower flow, I had barely had any fluids, just my antibiotics. This is when he informed me that I couldn’t have my epidural until I had a WHOLE bag of fluids in my system! With the baby IV this would have taken forever! Thankfully he was able to start a 2nd IV for me and get things moving faster.  Even with the new IV it still took an hour and a half to get the bag in. During this time I had dilated to around a 6.

This time was probably the worst part of labor for me because I had already mentally checked myself out 2 hours prior. On top of that, he began preparing / sterilizing my back which required me to sit on the bed. My feet didn’t even reach the floor and Micah couldn’t do much but hold my hand so there wasn’t much I could do for relief. My contractions, while short, where coming very frequently that I was so scared that I wouldn’t be able to hold still while he placed the epidural. Thankfully he got it in but I could tell right away that something was a little off. My left leg was feeling the effects a ton more than the right, but at this point I was grateful for any sort of relief. He made some adjustments and told me to lay on my side so the medicine flowed towards my right more. Ahhhh sweet relief! Both Micah and I got to go to sleep and I think we slept for 3-4 hours. I woke up a few times and noted that I couldn’t move either of my legs at all, but thought it was better than the pain so went back to sleep. They woke us up a bit before 8am and told me it was time to push! The nurse even said “Tell your baby I have a $5 bill in it for her if she’s here by 10am”

The best part about pushing was the excitement knowing she was going to be here soon! I had read many people online saying their kids came out in only X number of pushes, so towards the beginning I was actually counting. When I asked the doc how I was doing he responded with “You have a ways to go” which was super discouraging. At this point I rolled onto my back, and they turned down my epidural so I could feel the contractions. Something must have shifted again because suddenly I could feel everything on my right side and almost nothing on my left! I kept telling them my right side hurt but was told it was too late now! I kept pressing my epidural “happy button” but all it did was make my back feel cold and wet. It was so strange. I also was still struggling with my nausea despite multiple doses of zophran. I pushed for about 2 hours when I told the nurses I was tired. They then put me on my side with a peanut ball between my legs. After only a couple pushes in that position the doc said “It’s time for my birthday suit! ” and I moved back onto my back to finally meet her! During the last part of pushing there were a ton of voices and sounds but I only truly “heard” Micah’s voice. He was counting and I remember wanting to make him proud.

At 9:59 am she was born – earning her first $5 by  1 minute. When they placed her on me I’m pretty sure my first thought was just shock that she actually came out. She was beautiful! I also remember thinking how soft she was. She opened up her lungs and let the world know that she was here! Apparently I was hemorrhaging a bit at this point but I didn’t notice. What I did notice were her big grey blue eyes and little curls! She was here and our lives would never be the same ❤   I was in love and nothing else mattered.

Introducing Lilly Jaymes. 7lbs 4 oz. 19.5 inches long. Born 2/14/17 @9:59am



Going forward from here ~ Weight loss update

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Hi everyone! I just wanted to give a little update over here! Currently 33 weeks +3 days with baby girl ❤ As most of you know, I was struggling with regain before getting pregnant, but thankfully have only gained about ~16ish lbs in the last 33 weeks. I love being pregnant, but wow does it bring back so many memories of being morbidly obese. I’m currently at 250, around 20ish short of my highest weight.

                                          Left: 272lbs     :     Right: 33weeks pregnant, 250lbs

The aches and pains, panting up the stairs, the holding my breath to tie my shoes and struggling to get out of bed… So many things that I technically “remembered” but at the same time forgot what it was actually like. It motivates me, inspires me. It’s amazing how quick we can become complacent when we aren’t actively feeling like we were in our “before” days.

I’ve been thinking a lot about “Where do I go from here”, because honestly, this is total uncharted territory for me. Gyms in my area do not have childcare, I’ll be attempting to breastfeed, and there is snow on the ground half of the year. My usual plan of sweating it out to an hour of Netflix on the elliptical just won’t cut it anymore; I’ll need to be more strategic than ever.

After a lot of prayer, thoughts, and kind advice from you all, here is my current plan.

1. Practice a lot of balance and grace. I don’t expect getting fit and healthy after baby to be easy at all…. In fact, I truly have no idea what to expect. If something isn’t working, I will change it. If I mess up, I will move on. Giving up isn’t an option, but Grace IS.

2. I’ll be giving up my gym membership. Now this is something I’m not really excited about doing, but it makes the most sense practically. My gym doesn’t offer childcare,  and my husband travels for a good chunk of the year. If it works out where I CAN get to the gym, I’ll be happy to buy a day pass for some alone time and a good sauna.

3. Going along with #2, I’ll be starting at-home workouts. Beachbody has a online workout streaming platform that is pretty much like a workout Netflix. In the next few days they are making available an totally unlocked version to ALL of their programs, including all the new programs that will be released in the next year. I’ve decided to sign up for it, and get to work in my own living room.

4. Use my jogging stroller. My amazing parents got me a jogging stroller and I can’t wait for the snow to melt and to start using it! I literally go crazy if I’m cooped up in the house all day, and a good walk is a much better option than driving to the store. The pup will appreciate it too! I also can’t wait to start another couch to 5k program again get back into running!

So there you have it. My bare bones plan for the future. I want to thank you all for sticking with me through all of this and being the amazing support system that you are. I truly appreciate you!



Hello 3rd Trimester

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Entering the 3rd trimester has always been seen as a huge milestone in my eyes. This is IT – the last chunk of time before I meet our baby girl! It still is really surreal most days… I will go from thinking about how SO much time is left to panicking that time is running out in the blink of an eye. I’m thinking the holidays will fly by but then January will be the slowest month EVER!



How far along are you? 28 weeks + 4 days

What fruit are you? The size of a large eggplant! She’s working her way towards 2.5 lbs and mamma can feel it!

Due date: February 11th, 2017

Cravings? I am honestly seconds away from flying my dad in as my personal chef. I miss ALL his food! Luckily Micah is home from traveling and keeping me well fed!


Weight gain: Up ~12 lbs, but wow does it feel like more!

Exercise: I’m still doing horribly in this department. I started wearing my Garmin Vivofit again and see that I’m averaging about 6,000 steps (on a good day!). I’ll write another post soon when I actually get a plan together on picking up my exercise.

Food aversions: This isn’t exactly an aversion, but more like a REVERSAL of an aversion I’ve had my whole life! I suddenly am a fan of leftovers! I’m really curious to how long this will stick around.

Symptoms: The little aches and pains have picked up, especially the round ligament pains along with my hips. I’m also peeing ALL THE TIME!

Movement: YES!! The little kicks and punches have definitely picked up and I can even see my stomach move from the outside! Micah hasn’t gotten to feel any yet because as soon as there is any pressure she seems to calm down, but he did see my stomach move! The downside is that she has found my ribs, or I should say one rib in particular which is now her favorite place to land a quality kick.

Fears: I’m a little worried because my doctor, which I loved, is moving away before my due date. I’ve decided to switch to a certified nurse midwife because she came highly recommended by a few parents I know. Even though I still will give birth in a hospital, I do worry about emergency situations and not having an OB GYN already there. Watching The Business of Being Born on Netflix really helped me feel better about my decision though!

Generally feeling: Excited, tired, and uncomfortable

Looking forward to: The parenting / birth class that our hospital offers. I’m all about getting as much information as possible these days!

What I’ve been loving: Seeing the quirky, adorable relationship already forming between this little one and her daddy. Micah speaks to her in “whale” because she is, ya know, underwater… and I swear they are already scheming plans for the future.

What I miss: Running, consistent gym visits and feeling physically strong. I’m hoping I can fix this soon!

Sleep: I’m getting up to pee 5-6 times a night and tossing and turning a lot, but my maternity pillow really does help!

Maternity clothes? I’m still living in Lularoe and a few pairs of target maternity jeans. Plus size maternity clothes seem IMPOSSIBLE to find!

Any baby/pregnancy related purchases? We have a crib, dresser, and a few books! I’m hoping to hit up the Black Friday sales for a few more of the big ticket items.

How’s Roomba? He’s adorable. I really think he know’s what is coming! I read somewhere that dogs know you’re pregnant before you do… The only thing they don’t know is how many puppies you are going to have! He has been barking more and when he hears things outside, but I’m hoping that will calm down now that Micah’s home.


Words of wisdom: At this point I’m loving all the advice people have for me. I know it may get old eventually when I start actually making decisions that other people don’t agree with, but as for now, send as much advice as possible!

With Love,


23 week pregnancy update!

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Wow, these last 23 weeks truly have flown by. I haven’t exactly kept up with weekly updates, but for the most part things haven’t changed dramatically from week to week. I’m looking forward to blogging more, figuring out how to turn my “couch pregnancy” into a “fit pregnancy”, and meeting our little one!

How far along are you? 23 weeks today!

What fruit are you? A large mango

Due date: February 11th, 2017

Cravings? I still miss all my dad’s cooking, but no major cravings.

Weight gain: Up ~7lbs

Exercise: Sadly, none. I seem to have days where I have the energy, but then I usually lack the motivation! Hopefully will figure this out soon! (Blogging totally helps for accountability)

Food aversions: Leftovers –  yuck!

Symptoms: The morning sickness is pretty much gone as long as I don’t allow myself to get hungry! I’ve also had quite a bit of groin and hip pain lately. Dr. Google says it’s just all the ligaments stretching out, hopefully it doesn’t get too much worse!

Movement: Yes! This is my favorite part of being pregnant so far! I mainly feel her after I eat and if I sit very still.

Fears: Just general anxiety about her well being and being a mom. Also, winter…. How do I keep her warm and what if she is born during a snow storm?!

Generally feeling: Lazy and unmotivated. Micah has been traveling so I’ve been spending waaay too much time on Netflix. I bought a kindle to kick up my reading game, but still lack motivated to do much of anything after I get out of work. Some days I have energy, others I just pass out in bed!

Looking forward to: The hubby feeling her move from the outside! I have been able to a few times bit it seems like as soon as Micah tries she gets shy.

What I’ve been loving: Movement and ultrasounds! She was camera shy so I actually get to go back for another ultrasound in a few weeks! She was sucking her thumb and wouldn’t wake up to rollover (sounds like her daddy!)


What I miss: Wine, having energy to go to the gym, and Micah being home more (he’s traveling a lot for work)

Sleep: I’m in bed a TON, but I feel like the quality of my sleep is truly lacking. I do have a snoogle which helps me stay on my back, but I tend to want to flail all night long!

Maternity clothes? Yes! I am loving my maternity jeans! Other than that I’ve been living in Lularoe!

Boy or Girl? We have a little lady on our hands!

Any baby/pregnancy related purchases? Daddy has come home with a pair of green John Deere socks.


Words of wisdom: Everyone told me the 2nd trimester was easier than the first and so far that has turned out to be true! Thank goodness!

I can’t wait to meet her!

With love,


Two months along!

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This is my first baby update as I am 8 weeks today ! I’ll be waiting until I’m further along to share these just in case something goes wrong, but I have always loved reading other bloggers weekly baby posts! It just seems like a great way to remember things and if I ever end up have more kiddos I can compare things along the way 🙂

I know when I started this blog I totally intended it to be health & fitness only, but now that we have a little one along the way it only inspires me even more! I’m ready to become a healthy and fit mama!
How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

What fruit are you? A kidney bean

Due date: February 16, 2017

Weight gain/loss: Down about 1lb

Exercise: None except for a few short walks. This is SUPER disappointing to me right now. Hopefully I get some energy soon!

Food aversions: plain scrambled eggs. Gross!

Food cravings: My daddy’s breakfast sandwiches. – With horseradish!

Symptoms: I’m exhausted. Spent 12 hours in bed last night and I’m STILL wishing for a nap during the day. On top of that, I’m officially on the market for some new bras, which stinks because there aren’t any stores near me that sell my size! I guess I’m be internet ordering and hope I can find something that works. I’m also slightly queezy if I don’t eat and definitely bloated!

Fears: My biggest fear right now is that I will go to my ultrasound and they will say that nothing is there. Besides the symptoms I mentioned above, I haven’t had any real nausea or vomiting that has stuck around. I know that I should just be thankful, but at the same time I’m scared something is wrong.

Generally feeling: Tired and moody.

Looking forward to: My ultrasound and seeing the baby!

What I’ve been loving: The BabyCenter app! I love the weekly updates and daily articles. I’ve been trying to not skip ahead so I have something new to look forward to each day!

What I miss: Long island iced tea pitchers at the DT.

Sleep: Meh. Maybe I’m getting too much? I’m just sooo tired and I’m constantly looking forward to when I can hit the sack next.

Maternity clothes? I’m starting to think about it. I definitely need a bra and the bloating has my pants uncomfortable. I’m at least on the market for a new bra and some drawstring shorts.

Gender suspicions: Micah has always thought he would have boys and already is calling the baby “little guy” ! I’m less convinced.

Any baby/pregnancy related purchases? I did get some preggie pop drops off of Amazon to help with the queezyness . They are delicious! I do think they help because I haven’t thrown up yet!